Hey, you should have seen this coming . . . it worked for Stargate SG-1, so it’ll work for me.

Today has been crazy.  I’ve been off to get the oil changed in my car, and we’re preparing to head out to see Tintin in about an hour.  I’ve been working on the edits to Kuntilanak, and I’m about 11 pages through . . . and, damn, man.  The edit is coming along, it’s coming along nice, and I hope to finish it tonight or tomorrow.  Maybe tomorrow.  But it’s going to be loaded up nice and clean (fingers crossed!) when I’m done.

Also today: last chapter of the NaNo Novel.  3,200 or so words and I put that baby to bed.  I’ve learned a lot from doing the edit, and as I read what I created through the month of November, I’m still amazed by what I created.  It is great?  I don’t know, but I like reading it.  And I like the ideas it gives me for other stories in this universe.  Before I get to that point, though, I need to polish this and get it published.  I’ve got a call out for someone to edit, but she’s not hearing me . . . time to text!

The Work in Progress . . . hum.  Because of the work I’m doing on Kuntilanak, I’ve put that on hold, because I have an important part coming up and I don’t want to just throw words in that part for the sake of writing.  I want it to be a good first draft.  And this will work, because with the NaNo Novel and the Kuntilanak edits finishing up at the same time, that should allow me to spend the first week of the year completing my WiP.  Wow.  Think of that.  Sounds like I’m really working on something.

I had some good moments in 2011, and they will stay with me for a long time.  I want 2012 to be a better one of me, a much better one.  I want to write more stories.  I want to see more thing published.  I want to entertain my readers.

I want to keep this blog going.  Because it gives me a reason to communicate with people who might just want to see what I have to say.

I’ll be honest: the month of December was a strange one for me.  I’ve kept busy working, but at  the same time I’ve been fighting off some very depressing feelings, and at times it’s left me torn in ways I sometimes find difficult to explain.  I’m going through a lot of changes on my end–oh, it’s very true–and I want, I so very want, for 2012 to be the year when those changes stop messing with me and let me . . . just be myself.  We’ll see what happens.

For today, I say goodbye to a year that really did it’s best to kick me in the head.

And, in a way, it also showed me things that I didn’t realize still existed for me.

I guess I could say that makes it all, in a strange way, worthwhile.

Now lets see what tomorrow brings, shall we?

6 thoughts on “200

  1. Baby steps Ray and 2012 will be a good and quiet year. Slow and steady wins the race after all, so there is no reason to doubt that you will get there in the end. Coming from someone who has dealt with depression almost all of my very short adult life I can tell you that it goes up and down, but at some point you will find you have more ups than downs. Looking forward to Kuntilanak in its new shiny version!

    • Yeah, I know that feeling of depression; it’s been with me my whole long life. But I’m working on it. I’ve got other things to deal with as well, but one thing at a time.

      And Kuntilanak should be shiny. Oi. I’m up to 51 of 61 pages for the re-edit, and I’ve found not only a few errors, but things I just didn’t like. So the lesson learned: edit better!

      And if you really want to proof my novel, let me know. I finished the revised edit last night.

  2. “I’m going through a lot of changes on my end–oh, it’s very true–and I want, I so very want, for 2012 to be the year when those changes stop messing with me and let me . . . just be myself. We’ll see what happens.” – OMG, it’s as if you read my mind. I put a very similar request out to the universe. Here’s hoping, eh.

    Thanks for sharing so much of “you” when you post. It’s nice to see I’m not the only one.

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