There was a moment during the writing of Chapter Nine of Suggestive Amusements when I started feeling sorry for my muses. Oh, sure: they’re goddess-like creatures who’ve been around for a very long time, thousands of years, bringing inspiration to the masses, and they are legends in their own rights.
But they have to be miserable as hell. And you wouldn’t want to piss them off.
While getting deeper into some paragraphs I was writing that intended to give readers a peek at their lives, I thought of the following line from The Prophecy, which is a great little movie that pulls no punches in showing the line between ultimate good and ultimate evil is a thin one.
The line I thought of last night was this:
Did you ever notice how in the Bible, when ever God needed to punish someone, or make an example, or whenever God needed a killing, he sent an angel? Did you ever wonder what a creature like that must be like? A whole existence spent praising your God, but always with one wing dipped in blood. Would you ever really want to see an angel?
If you know your angelic history, you’d know that you can’t really lay eyes upon an angel, least you burst into flames. Their current image was brought about during the Renaissance, where a bunch of white painters had to figure out how to do paintings of creatures you couldn’t lay eyes upon, and decided, fuck it, we’ll make them tall, white, and blond–with wings.
In the course of thinking about my muses, lovely ladies that they are, they had to possess abilities that would be pretty ass kicking, and overall frightening. One of the sisters, Anna–not her real name, but you can probably figure out who she is if you look these ladies up–talks about how it’s really easy to go back to a moment just after conception, and fix it so that egg never find purchase in the rocky terrain that is the beckoning womb. If they don’t get born, then reality gets retconned, and who’s going to give a shit about someone who never existed in the first place?
The more I wrote, the worse I actually felt about my characters. My main muse Erin, she does something at one point in the early 19th Century, and I didn’t feel good as I wrote those few lines. I don’t like doing bad things to my characters, but that’s life, immortal or otherwise. But crap always happens, and you gotta write the bad with the good, like it or not.
Because if all you did was write about good things happening to your characters, they wouldn’t seem very real, would they?
There will be another chapter added to the story, because it is needed. That’ll bring the count to eighteen chapters, which means I’m at the halfway point. The new chapter is going to ended up between what would have been Eleven and Twelve, so time to move everything down, and put the new card in place.
Scrivener makes it so easy to restructure your novel–
If only the lives of my muses were that easy.