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The Boy Who Set His Wingmate Straight

Last night was a good time to turn off most of the Internet, turn on the music, and get to writing.  Because there was so much to say, and I needed to get it all said last night, because there isn’t a fourth novel in The Millenium Trilogy, and I could only wring out one more The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo reference before I would run out of snappy titles.  There you go:  I write based upon how witty my blog post titles are.

Really, though, I needed to pull this one together, and trust me, these last seventeen hundred words weren’t easy ones to write, because I changed how this scene was going to play out maybe five times before writing what I did last night.  I needed to, because every time I’d go down one road I’d think, “Okay, now would Kerry say or do that at this point in his life?”  And the answer to most of those paths were “no”, because the kid still has a bit of growing up ahead of him.

Needless to say, Emma’s “Don’t you mean soul mate?” shot was just the opening–


All excerpts, this page, from The Foundation Chronicles, Book One: A For Advanced, copyright 2013, 2014, by Cassidy Frazee)

There was something about Emma’s tone that Kerry wasn’t enjoying at all. “What do you mean by that?”

“Oh, please. You told me you knew Annie for a week before you walked through Founder’s Gate, and she’s your soul mate?” She rolled her eyes. “What’s wrong with you, Kerry?”

Kerry’s voice began rising as it always did when he became upset. “What do you mean what’s wrong? Nothing’s wrong.” He jabbed a finger at Emma. “What’s wrong with you?”

“I’m trying to make you see that you’re not in love with her, you’re just infatuated.” Emma started waving her arms about. “You know what it is? It’s those big brown eyes and that long brown hair—”

“Her eyes are hazel and her hair is chestnut.”

“Whatever. She starts playing with her hair and looks at you with those big eyes, and then she turns on that accent . . .” Emma began curling her hair around a finger and stared at the ceiling while speaking in a poor, exaggerated imitation of Annie’s voice. “Karri, my loov, wold yoo liik tu hoold my hund?” She batted her eyelids several times. “Puulsse?”

Kerry wasn’t amused in the least. “She doesn’t talk like that.”

Emma didn’t appear to hear the comment. “And she’s not all that nice, either. She’s cold to everyone—”

“She’s not like that to me.”

“Oh, no? What about in the hospital after we wrecked? She seemed pretty pissed off at you to me.”

His breathing became ragged. “What do you care?”

“I care because you’re my friend.”

You’re not acting like my friend.” Kerry’s voice was growing louder as a feeling he’d not had much experience with began rising as well.

Emma took a single step forward, and she spoke in a softer tone. “Kerry, she’s not right for you. She not really your soul mate; she’s just some girl whose got you wrapped around her finger, and you aren’t smart enough to see—”

Kerry didn’t need to hear anymore; he’d had enough. Any hope Emma had for a private conversation vanished as his bellowing voice echoed down the narrow corridor and into the East Transept. “You know nothing about Annie. Everything you’re saying is wrong, and you need to shut up now. Shut up. Just SHUT UP.” He spun around and ran out of the corridor.

Good thing this conversation wasn't happening three years later.

Good thing this conversation wasn’t happening three years later.

And there, in that fifth sentence, is proof that Kerry actually doesn’t remember his dreams–at least not the important ones that Annie talks about.  Otherwise, as astute readers might have noticed, he’d remember someone he claimed he lost . . .

Kerry runs out of there and runs not into the main part of the Great Hall, but up to his left and the other corridor leading to the teachers offices.  He runs in there, hunkers downs, and starts crying.  Why?  He feels betrayed, so much so that he did something he’s never done before:  he lost his temper and yelled.  Emma’s the first person he ever completely loses it on, and since he’s not the sort of person who starts punching walls–he’s more the sit in his room and brood and, if it gets to that point, cry–he does the later.

Of course, this doesn’t mean he does it alone . . .



His head snapped up: Emma was standing three meters away, half hidden in shadow. “Go away.”

“Kerry, I’m—”

GO AWAY.” He looked down as he fought to keep from hyperventilating. “What is wrong with you? Why did you say those things about Annie? Why? I thought you were my friend.”

Emma slid closer to him. “I am your friend.”

“Friends don’t make up lies about people they love.” He wasn’t shouting like before, but Kerry wasn’t making an effort to keep his voice down. “I’m hurting, Emma. I love her and I miss her so much right now . . . and then you come and start talking crap about her; you make fun of her; you make up lies about her.” His voice rose to a shout. “I love Annie. She’s my soul mate. You’re not going to change that, ever.”


Kerry has never discussed his relationship with Annie to anyone.  Every time something has changed between them, it’s happened in private.  The closest to a public declaration he’s made about his feelings was the dedication he made to her at the Samhain dance–and one other time to Emma, which I’ll get to.  He pours out his feelings and kindly told Emma to piss off as well.  How does she take it?


Emma stood silently looking as if she was in shock. She wiped something away from her right cheek before kneeling on the floor about two meters from Kerry. “I didn’t know.”

He sniffed back snot and tears. “Know what?”

“A lot of people talk about you two.”

“Yeah, I’ve heard that.”

She hung her head. “Most of the people think you guys are just, I don’t know, pretending that you’re all lovey dovey and romantic—”

“Why do they think that?”

“Because you’re eleven years old.” She looked up, and in the dim light Kerry saw the tears streaming down her cheeks. “Because you’re just kids, and what do kids know about real love, right?”


And that’s another thing that’s been mentioned, as Kerry pointed out.  Other kids do talk about them, and most think they’re nuts or full of it.  Sure, Annie’s really twelve and all grown up, but still:  to the other eleven and twelve year olds, the way they act looks like an act.  And that’s one of the reasons that a few of the adults feel what’s going on between them, because they’ve had time to mature and develop their feelings–and this sense that this is the real deal with these two.

And now Emma’s sensing it, too . . .


He slowly shook his head as he choked out his word. “It’s not like that with Annie and me. I told you up at the Observatory, there’s times it feels like I’ve known her a long time—”

“I know; I remember.” She chuckled. “I was asking all those questions about you guys because I was trying to figure out what was going on—”

“And ‘cause you like me.”

“Yeah . . .” She snorted and cleared her throat. “’Cause I like you. And ‘cause I was like everyone else believing that you guys are just infatuated with each other.” She slid a little closer. “Now I know.”

“What do you know, Emma?”

She closed with him until she was only an arm’s length away. “Remember when I asked if Annie was really your girlfriend?”

“Yeah, I remember.”

“You told me something in Bulgarian—”

“Moyata polovinka.” Kerry swallowed hard, clearing his throat. “It means soul mate.”

“I know; I remember that, too.” Emma wiped her eyes again. “You remember I walked away after you told me that?”

“Yeah. You had a strange look on your face—”

“That’s because I saw something in your eyes I’d never seen before.” She exhaled hard twice. “I saw it again.” She lightly touched Kerry’s cheek, getting him to look at her. “Tell me you love her.”

Kerry stared directly into Emma’s eyes. “I love Annie.”


“She’s my soul mate.”

Emma nodded slowly. “Yeah, there is it.”


“I see it in your eyes, Kerry.” She gently touched his face just outside his right eye. “The truth.” She pushed back off her knees and sat on the floor, stretching out her legs. “I screwed up.”


Thank you for admitting that, Ginger Girl from Colorado.


Kerry couldn’t look at her. He was angry at what she’d said, but at the same time hearing her say those last three words felt like something twisting in his gut. “If you thought you were going to get me to like you by talking crap about Annie, yeah, you did.”

She winced. “I don’t know what I’m doing. I know nothing about how to get someone to like me.”

Kerry chuckled. “Hey, join the club. If Annie hadn’t spoken to me first, I wouldn’t have said a word to her. I just . . .” He looked up at Emma with sad eyes. “Until Annie I never talked to girls.”

“Same with me with boys.” She turned to Kerry. “I’m sorry I kissed you like that. I kinda threw myself at you.”

“Yeah, you did.”

Emma looked down at her left hand as she made circles on the floor. “You going to tell Annie?”

“No, not anytime soon.”

“You afraid of what she’ll say?”

“I’m afraid of what she’ll do.” He wiped his face dry. “Remember she was gonna Air Hammer Lisa for hitting me in the back of the head with a bottle?”

The memory flew back into Emma’s mind. “Oh jeez, yeah. You both were gonna do that.”

“Yeah. And in front of Lovecraft and Sladen.” He drew in a long, deep breath. “We got reamed for that move.”


Kerry doesn’t know what Annie almost laid on Emma, or what she did to Lisa:  he’s going off of what he’s picking up from her in the last few weeks from her little forays to The Black Vault.  That, and he knows she knows a death spell.  Deep down he knows Annie could be a dangerous girl, and as controlled as she acts most of the time, she’s also a twelve year old girl, and that in of itself can be a little scary.  He’s also lying about getting reamed, but I’ll forgive him for that.

But that leaves one question unanswered:


Emma stared at a spot on the wall across from her, keeping her face turned away from Kerry. “Can we still be friends?”

He was wondering the same thing. “You said some pretty nasty things—”

“I know.”

“Even if you didn’t think we were serious about each other, you were wrong to throw those at me.”

“I know.” She sniffed once, fighting to keep from crying.

“Thing is, if I stop talking to you, Annie will ask why, and I’ll have to tell her what happened, and I’d rather avoid all that . . .” He scooted to his right, getting closer to the weeping girl, and extended his arm. “Take my hand.”

Emma finally looked towards Kerry. “What?”

“Take my hand.” She tentative reached out and loosely held his hand. “You’re my wingmate and my friend. You screwed up, and you admitted you screwed up. So . . . I forgive you, Emma.”

She looked down and nodded. “Thank you, Kerry.”

The tone of his voice changed slightly, growing more serious and stern. “But I want you to know that if you ever talk about Annie again like you did—to me, or to anyone else—I won’t just be pissed: I won’t be your friend anymore, I won’t forgive you, and I won’t speak to you ever again.” He gave her hand a squeeze. “That’s a promise, Emma—understand?”

“Yes, I do.” She slowly pulled her hand away. “You sounded like when you were questioning Lisa when we were doing Drought of Submission in Sorcery class.”

“Well . . .” He shrugged. “A sorceress has gotta do what a sorceress has gotta do.” He raised an eyebrow. “Right?”


And when I wrote that last night, I asked myself, “Does Kerry know what he did with that last move?”, holding hands and swearing all that is right and wrong by Emma.  The answer is, “Yep,” and he did a sort of half-assed version of a Sorceress’ Bargain, letting her know without letting her know–because they haven’t gotten that far in Sorcery class–that if she screwed up again, that’s it:  game over.  She probably sensed something, because of the comment she made about him sounding as he did when he more or less put the boots to Lisa and had her writhing on the floor in pain during the Drought of Submission test.  That would be a class that Emma would remember, mostly because she had to square off against Annie, and she wasn’t digging that at all.

Did he actually do that with her?  Hum . . . probably not.  Probably.

Three out of four scenes complete.  Only one remaining, and I know exactly what’s going to happen there . . .

Not to mention it allows me a touch of symitry with the next chapter.

Not to mention it allows me a touch of symmetry with the next chapter.

And those three scenes put me closer to finishing Act Two.  Not to mention there’s something coming up here real soon.

Watch this space.

And don’t say bad things about Annie.

13 thoughts on “The Boy Who Set His Wingmate Straight

  1. Interesting scene, Cassie. This scene showed their real age.especially Emma’s. I think she’s nasty, and a potential bully. I don’t know how she can redeem herself to me. I wanted to punch her when she mocked Annie, her accent, her physical appearance, and had the temerity to tell Kerry that he doesn’t love Annie. She’s a piece of work.

    When he held Emma’s hand, is that part of a bargain vow ?

    • I think I really pulled out how, even as advanced kids with above average IQs and incredible abilities, they’re still just kids. Emma’s only a month older than Kerry, whose birthday comes about a month before the school year ends, making him one of the youngest of the A Levels.

      Yeah, Emma went all “Mean Girls” and Kerry called her on it. Even he knows that “If you want me to like you, talking smack about my girlfriend to do it” isn’t the way to go, not that he was going anyway. Their friendship is based on flying, but beyond that he hasn’t shown any interest in her. Emma’s mocking does show her immaturity, and that, deep down, she is probably jealous of Annie. She’s also smart enough to know that she doesn’t want to have to face her. The way her memory snapped back when Kerry mentioned the sorcery class shows she DOES know that Annie could be just a little too much for her.

      I’ve not shown a Sorceress’ Bargain being conducted, but there is a physical component involved between the two parties. Kerry would know how it was done because he knows Annie has one with Professor Lovecraft, and she’s probably told him what was involved. Did Kerry pull one off on Emma without her knowing it? Not gonna say.

    • I would like to point out that the person who originally created Annie HATED Emma with a passion to rival several dozen exploding stars. She once told me that, during one scene she role played with Emma, that if she could have gotten away with it, she’d have “ripped out her lungs and stomped on them.” She thought Emma was a slimy, scheming little bitch who would only be trouble for Kerry.

      • You succesfully raised our hackles, I grant you that, he he. And that’s a good thing. In Harry Potter, it was Prof. Umbrage that did it for me. I hated her so much more than Valdemort.

        Are Lisa and Emma best friends ?

        ” scheming, little bitch”….. Ha ha ha. I wanted to call her that, too, but I thought you might get offended, he he he. After all, she’s one of your kids.

        • Emma and Lisa aren’t friends, but, strangely enough, they are the ONLY A Levels from the US. Kerry is the only other American-born A Level, but he lives in Wales since he has a Welsh father.

          Lisa is friends with a girl from Germany; Emma knows Natalie, the girl who is in Advanced Spells with Annie and Kerry, and who is helping tutor Kerry for Ostara, but she’s not really friends with Emma.

          In terms of being mean, Lisa is really much better at it. She knows how to find your buttons and push them hard–like she did with Annie.

          • About Lisa…. Yes, she is too, but I don’t focus on her coz she has no romantic feelings for Kerry. I guess?????

            Just wondering, how come they are hating on Annie ? Because they see the teachers treat her like she’s special?

            Also, are there any other male students , besides Kerry ? Obviously there are, but it looks like they don’t figure much in your story. Get one for Emma ! ! LOL

          • There are other male students, but since they’re outnumbered 3 to 1 at the A Level, and Kerry doesn’t seem to be all that interested in making any friends among the boys, they aren’t showing up. Annie and Kerry are the focus, and it’s mostly the people around them and come into play.

            Annie stands out because (1) she is a Legacy, so she’s expected to do well, (2) she is good, too, so she’s usually one of the first to complete an exercise, (3) being in Advanced Spells and having access to The Black Vault means she’s not being treated like the other A Levels, and (4) her relationship with Kerry is seen by all, and makes her stand out even more. Add in that she’s seen as cold and even a little snooty to others because she’s not very approachable–she’s really not all that interested in making friends, just Kerry and magic–and that sets her up to a few people to want to take down.

  2. Annie did want to make friends, didn’t she ? At least before she went to Salem. It was in her conversation with Kerry or someone …. I kind of remember that.
    I kind of understand her classmates ‘ mindset . They are thinking Annie is looking down on them, and they are so low in her judgement that she doesn’t bother to make friends with them. But some people just seem to look like that. And because she looks like that, they don’t even try to talk to her. Nevertheless, they don’t have to take her down just because she annoys them, especially if she’s not doing anything bad to them. She’s just quiet, and minds her own business. reminds me of myself when I was a 7 year old new immigrant. I was very quiet and didn’t talk to my classmates…. because I didn’t know ENGLISH. ! ! Yeah, I could understand very well, but I couldn’t speak it well, yet. And because of that, I was bullied by a bunch of classmates. Well, I had my revenge, later.

    • Where Annie is making friends is with the adults. Mention will come up later that she’s had a few friends back home, but because she’s traveled around a lot, she hasn’t had a chance to make a lot of friends her own age. At the school she seems to be drawn to Helena Lovecraft, Coraline, Deanna Arrakis, and Wednesday. These are the people who understand her, and whom she feels comfortable around. But we don’t know what sort of dynamic she’s developing with the older students in Advanced Spells–though she’ll tell her mother here soon.

      Kerry’s going pretty much the same way: most of his friends are instructors and staff: Wednesday and Coraline are people he can speak with, and Erywin is slowly moving into his circle. He spends time with Nadine, who is also in Advanced Spells, and then there’s . . . Emma. Some people might point out that Kerry has issues with his mother, but he’s surrounded himself with mother figures.

      • Nadine is his tutor, right ? Oh, Emma. But of course. I think she volunteered to be a wingmate of Kerry … because. Oh, Helena is Prof. Lovecraft ! !

        Maybe I’ve forgotten, but is Kerry special, too ? he’s not Legacy.

        • Kerry comes from a Normal family. Annie is the only Legacy. Well, the reason Emma got put with Kerry is because they were both A Levels, and none of the older kids wanted to fly with them. Early one of one screwed up, Vicky could ground them both. They didn’t and the rest is history.

          Nadine is Kerry’s music tutor. She’s also in Emma’s coven, and she racing for the coven team.

  3. I’m almost tempted to ask if Kerry will toughen up over the years so that he becomes the kind of person who smashes walls versus holing up somewhere and crying, but then I realized that Kerry’s reaction to yelling at Emma is EXACTLY the kind of thing I do these days, and it’s much easier to handle than smashing walls. (At least in my opinion.) Less destructive to both walls and fists too. 😀

    I’m really excited to see how Kerry will turn out as an adult. He’s actually pretty scaring. Half-invoking the Sorceress’ Bargain? That was a gutsy move. I can see why he did it, but to think of doing it so quickly. That would be something that, were I in his shoes, I wouldn’t think of until much, much later when it was too late.

    I can see this being a true turning point in Emma and Kerry’s relationship. I don’t see Kerry being as carefree and clueless around Emma anymore, and I honestly don’t see Emma as trying to step on Annie’s toes trying to take her place. I think Emma realizes she crossed a boundary with Kerry and that it’s not a good thing. Lisa (I’ve been following the other conversation here) has more chance of stepping on toes than Emma in the future after this encounter.

    I’m just waiting for an instructor (any of them) to pop up and say, “Is everything alright?”

    • The nice thing about plotting out character’s time lines well into the future (like to their deaths) means I know exactly how and when everyone starts changing. As I’ve mentioned before, Kerry isn’t used to dealing with his emotions; the months before coming to school he’d sort of become “dead” to them, and they’re walking up. He lost his temper, which is something he’s NEVER done, and it probably shook him a little to actually yell at someone.

      Also, I originally saw his final statement to Emma being a LOT meaner; he was hurt bad, and was still of a mind to lash out at her. But I realized that he’s not at that point in his life yet, and he’d had a hard time being mean to Emma, at least right now.

      Emma knows she did cross a line, and remembering that Annie flew out of her chair with the intention of throwing an offensive spell at Lisa probably wised her up a little. She has no idea what Annie did to Lisa during the day of the attack, and she doesn’t remember Annie almost bleeding her out. If she did, she probably wouldn’t have said anything to Kerry.

      Kerry’s pretty bright; he’ll be the first to admit he can think on his feet these days. It’s part of that advice Lovecraft gave them, and he’s trying to put it to use. It’s saved his life once, and given that he’s been told by bother Lovecraft and Annie that he has the makings of a good sorceress, we might just see him starting to put that together. After all, Annie wants her “dark witch”, too.

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