In case you hadn’t heard, something happened to me yesterday. Something . . . well, few things don’t get bigger.
Besides being Imbolc (in some parts of the world, that is) and the celebration of an oversized squirrel somewhere in western Pennsylvania, it was also my coming out day at work. They’ve known about this for three weeks, and from what I’d understood the higher ups had already told their people this was coming, and that people should be ready.
So . . . that said, I’d been waiting, and–no lie–dreading the moment just a little. Waiting for it because something like this only comes around once in your lifetime, and dreading it because it was something that wasn’t quite what you see every day, particularly in an office environment.
Like it or not, it had been affecting me. I had a bit more in the way of nerves than I wanted to admit, and it was affecting my sleeping, my ability to do things correctly, and even my writing, because as I wasn’t sleeping well, then I was coming home and crashing out hard at night, and remaining sleepy throughout the evening.
But this was something that needed to get done, and done it would become.
I didn’t sleep well the night before, which meant I was dragging a bit when I got up yesterday. And up I was at five-fifteen. I tried to write my post the best I could, then checked the weather, looked outside and saw it was a mess, looked over the outfit I was going to wear . . . yeah, everything was ready, so all I had to do was get ready as well. Cleanup, change, put on my makeup–all the good things.
With everything out of the way in my morning routine, it was time to start walking and head into work. I threw on my walking shoes–no way I’m trying to cover a mile in heeled pumps–and headed out into the cold. Along the way I passed three people who greeted me with a “Good Morning”, which is something I never got when I was in male mode. I half expected someone to tell me to smile . . .
Since I’m usually one of the first ones in the office, I just entered an went to my office, which is actually an oversized cubical–sort of like the groundhog, only it doesn’t pretend to predict the weather. I got my jacket off, changed my shoes, and then snapped a picture to prove I really was in the office and not fooling with people.
I got my coffee, stomping all the way to the break room at the other side of the building, because when you wear a size 11 women’s wedge heeled shoe, and the floor is covered without insulated padding between the pull-up carpet squares above and the concrete below, you’re gonna make some noise when you walk. Then it was back to the office cube and another picture.
People came down to see me a few times during the day to tell me they had my back. People who spoke with me that day were kind and curious–and you can’t help but be curious, can you? I wa in a couple of meetings that day, and no one thought it strange. Everyone addressed me by my chosen name after I told them what it was, and I expect that to continue.
In short, by the time I got home last night I was pretty high on myself. I felt great, although I was tired: not getting a lot of sleep the night before took its told, and I was nodding on and off from about eight-thirty on. I had the story ready to go, but there was no way I was going to write anything worthwhile: I was simply too tired.
But I’m better now, and I expect to do some writing when I get home from work tonight. I’ll get right to that after I eat.
There you have it: the tale of a new office lady. One who I believe will be around for while.